Breathtakingly Beautiful

Last night it was raining heavily here in Vizag and we went for a drive along the beach. The speciality of Vizag is that the mountains make you feel like you're in a hill station and you also have the beach since its on the coast. The eastern ghats look so amazing in the ocean. However, being night time we couldn't see the mountains in the ocean yesterday. But whenever the lightning struck, the outline of the mountains was illuminated and it looked simply marvelous. I felt like witnessing that beauty was enough to be considered as a reason for my existence.

The river

I averted my gaze to the river outside the train window as I sensed that we were on a bridge. It had somehow managed to distract me from the book I was reading on Wattpad.

At first I looked far off, where the water meet the sky and was amazed by its beauty. As I looked further close I observed a lot of artificial features. Something brown was floating on the water and all the grass was topped with plastic items. I wondered if I had the right to blame the people around, for what they do isn't any different from what people at my place do. I mean, we don't make sure that the drainage that leaves our house is treated. It might be going into a nearby lake and we'd have no idea whilst boating in the same lake.

And when we bring up issues like these while talking to others, they say "It's India... You can't expect better." Isn't there anything we can do to bring a change in this attitude? I'd agree the prime minister has taken some measures and that's really cool and everything, but not many people actually care.

All I can do right now is hope, that the next time I come this way, maybe Krishna river will actually regain its natural beauty.

The greatest oxymoron

What is it called to be chronophobic but yet not do anything to make our future better? That describes my life.

I'm not guilty but I repent. I'm so worried yet so carefree. So busy yet so bored.
Life by itself is a kind of oxymoron, isn't it? It's a blend of contrasts. Just like how nature is made of different yet perfectly combined colours. It's a puzzle that seems to be impossible to complete, but at the end somehow everything fits in. At least, that's what we hope, and that hope leads us through life.

Today I realized how difficult it is to take things that I usually advice people to, for I couldn't do the same myself. I'd been constantly battling with myself, obviously discussing with my inner self the pros and cons of every possibility, and that, as usual, only made it worse. It so happens that sometimes, talking to a friend about something, even though they don't give you any advise, helps better than talking to yourself because no matter how much you try, you're only 'one mind' as a whole and you can't expect the good part in you to convince the bad or vice-versa.

Well I guess I got off the track.

Change

Sometimes there is just too much change in life. I feel no shame in admitting I hate too many changes. I do agree change is necessary, but it's not always pleasant.

People change, things change, situations change, places change, everything changes. Everything.

You plan something and all your plans are shattered due to some sudden change.

You're good friends with someone and then their life changes and so does your role in it.

Change just makes your life a mess, at most times. But the same change teaches us to walk through our troubles. Change, is just something we can't really judge. Even though it is said that everything that happens if for our own good, I'm never convinced that change is always good. 

Like everything else in the world, change has it's pros and cons. 

One says she doesn't like change because she's already got attached to those around her and it takes time for her to love those new things around her! Well it is true. Half our life is spent adapting to changes around us. And by the time we manage to completely adapt ourselves, there's another change right before us ready to freak us out. 

Another one said: Change ? :D full of happiness ! Obvio coz mood swings every now n then .:D :")

One answer that pleased me most was: Change. My views about change tend to alter. I'm not the kind of person who is fond of changed unless it's for the better. I need a lot of time to get accustomed to a thing that has changed. Change, even in a positive manner is tough for me. I dislike change. I like routine. I like being boring. I'm used to it. It's the way I am.

That answer reminds me of something. Probably Quentin Jacobsen, from Paper Towns. He said something about liking routine, about liking boredom, much unlike Margo Roth Spiegelman. Well, you'd understand that only if yo read or watch Paper Towns. I'm presently in a dilemma whether to watch it or not, because generally movies that are made based on books, disappoint those who have first read the book. I didn't watch TFIOS for the same reason. 

Getting back to change, I think the most important change, is change in priorities. Our riorities keep changing all the time. Something we once craved about, might no longer mean anything to us. Someone whose existence you didn't even acknowledge, might now mean the world to you.

But no matter what, it is important to realize that change, is meant to be, and you have no choice rather than to accept it, for that's the best way to cope with it. Fighting against it, at almost all times, only makes things worse. 

Why life?

Life is such a confusion. It's like you have it all planned, but yet you have no idea what to do. It's like you have all the time in the world but yet you want more. It's like you have a hell lot of friends but you don't know whom to turn to.

It's just a constant battle between reality and imagination. A battle between yourself and the rest of the world. Sometimes I feel the very concept of our busy lives funny. We're just a speck of dust compared to the universe and I feel like there is literally no point in struggling so hard building up our future and finally settle in the graveyard. I just wonder: why? Why do we have to face so many things? Why do we have to go through so much? Why do we have to even survive? Why are people even afraid of doomsday? Isn't it really peaceful to not exist at all? Are the tiny little moments of joy and happiness worth all this mess?

The list of questions is endless. It just keeps going on forever. Some questions just don't have answers. And trying to find their answers give you nothing but a headache. Sometimes it makes me wonder if I'm insane to think this way. I wonder if everyone around me wonder about such stuff. Well that was a lot of 'wonder's :D

I recently watched a movie called 'My Sister's Keeper' starring Cameron Diaz. It had me in tears. The cancer patient in that movie wanted to be liberated. Oh no, we're getting back to the 'life and death' topic again! 

Shoutout to my twitter :P

So.. hey guys :)
It's not like I haven't had any ideas to blog about.. It's just that I don't have enough time, and well, patience haha. So... whatsoever pops up into my head, I tweet about it. So I was wondering if you like to check my twitter page once in a while.
Click here to go to my twitter profile.

Have a wonderful week ahead!
Lots of Love.

Assumptions (not really)

What kind of thoughts flash into your mind when you read the title of this post?
To me, I remember certain assumptions I made in life, or some of my friends who assume things and start worrying about them, when they're not even close to happening.

I assumed that my parents knew nothing about me. I was pretty much sure about that, actually. I thought I was extremely good at hiding emotions. I always thought I was very patient and short-tempered was a phrase that wouldn't describe me anytime in my life. But my assumptions turned out to be quite wrong. I am probably not comfortable to explain how or why in detail right now, but I had been wrong.

I'm not as patient as I think I am. I get restless very soon. But I don't really show it out. I'm stubborn. Yes, I'm quite stubborn but my school friends will never agree to it. I wonder why but I feel my true qualities are showing out <i>now</i>. By 'now', I mean in the past few weeks. A year ago, my passion for writing wasn't even half of what I've developed right now(it's less now too, though). I'm more honest with my words these days. Oh well, don't get the wrong meaning. I don't mean that I've not been honest all my life xD I mean, I've become more expressive. I don't hide many things. I just speak out casually. There's nothing on my mind which is not known to <i>anyone</i>. But well, at the same time, there is nobody who knows everything on my mind.

Is it the same with you? As far as I know, many of you have one of your parents or your siblings as your best friend and you keep them updated with every single detail in the sketch of your life. I don't treat anyone like that. I'm not sure if it's because i'm not <i>that</i> comfortable with anyone. Or maybe I don't trust anyone like that. Sounds harsh, but it's the truth.

I have no idea why I'm writing this right now. I've drifted from Assumptions to My Life, and I'd like to apologize for that.

Inspiration

Apparently, I've been spending way more time on Youtube than earlier, and I've discovered a ton of new things.
Youtube has redefined inspiration for me. I realized that there are a hell lot of people in world with totally different lives and the ways in which they've coped with reality amuses me more than anything else.

I watched Lizzie Velasquez who's got a syndrome which doesn't let her gain any weight. She was titled the world's most ugliest woman, by youtubers. She was bullied, isolated, laughed at, but none of that stopped her from being successful in life. Today, she is one of the most famous motivational speaker, and the author of three books.

Have you heard about living dolls? I hadn't, until an hour ago. I watched this 40 minute long TLC Documentary about three living dolls, and was awed. It was rather strange to know that people like to live like dolls. Dress like them, look like them, behave like them.. all round the clock. One of them was discouraged by her family and friends and yet she overcame it. According to her, living in the fantasy world helps her like herself better. It makes her feel more confident, rather than embarrassed. To be honest, I don't really understand how walking down a busy street in a long maroon wig, big dark eyelashes and 18th century gowns makes one feel much more confident, but what matters is that she does what she wants in spite of all the hate she is exposed to. 

Leave alone dressing, they undergo dangerous surgeries to look more like a doll. Trust me, google Justin the Living Doll, and I'm gonna have to remind you to shut your open jaws! 

Something similar, a woman wants to have the world's smallest waist. She wore corsets everyday for three whole years, even during the night and now her waist is like, really really tiny. The corset has like, become a part of her body. She can't even manage to stand straight without the corset. And obviously her organs are crushed and that has bad effects on her health. She has breathing problems and she can't eat much for a meal. She has to take ten small meals for a day. Not to be rude or anything, I do not consider it to be beautiful. It's rather painful to look at that small waist of hers. But I respect her choice. At least she chose to do something unique in her life, unlike me, just another girl sitting on the other side of the computer screen.

So, when I write about all these people with the heading 'Inspiration', please don't mistake that I wanna do something like be a living doll, or get into the Guinness book of records. All I'm trying to emphasize on, is that, they really crossed all the barriers and did what they love. They chose their passion. They dreamt, and they made their dreams come true.

Creepy Coincidence :')

Mirrors

I was standing in the train, waiting for the station to arrive. There was a glass window opposite to me. It was way past evening and i could see two images on the glass of the window.

1. Reflection of myself and other passengers in the train.

2. Image of people in another train to the other side of the window.

My thoughts flew back to John Green's words.. how he often talked about mirrors and people not being able to show us the right reflection of ourselves. It made very little sense to me in the beginning, and it still is a little blur in my head -probably blame my age- but yet I find it pretty fascinating. 

On second thought, you can consider that glass as a person. We have two choices, either concentrate on what we see through the glass, or on our reflection on it. Similarly, we can either see through the person, i.e., judge him or her based to their behaviour towards everyone else, or see our reflection, i.e., judge him or her only based on their behaviour towards us.

I'd leave the rest of the thinking to you.

Have a wonderful day :)

The struggle for attention.

I was just spending some time on twitter when a thought popped up in my head. Well, my brain doesn't come up with ideas very often so I decided I would share it here.

Attention, is something most of us thrive for. We just want to be noticed. We want to be heard. We always want to get what we deserve. (But most of the time, we don't even know what we deserve, right? :P)

The best example is the tweet i've chosen to post here. In this tweet, R.L.Stine, the famous author, has replied to my tweet. I probably want to gain more people's attention by showing his tweet and maybe I want to kinda show-off (not really showing-off! xD) that I got Mr. Stine's attention!

Anyway, getting back to what actually popped up into my head...
Since my twitter feed was getting a hell lotta spammed, I decided to unfollow some of the comedy accounts. I've always been this greedy person who didn't want to miss out on any of the fun online. I wanted to be updated with every new thing on here, and so, to convince myself to unfollow a few accounts, I told myself that:

If a tweet is good enough and worth seeing/reading, it will be retweeted a thousand times and finally reach me anyway!

If you're a reader of my blog, it is high time you figured out that I always compare things. So here I cmpare again... The tweets to humans.

If someone is talented enough, their work will be appreciated, talked about, advertised and circulated so much -thanks to the internet- that it will reach people who are in high designations in that field, and the person would achieve success in life. There is no point in struggling for attention.

But then again, you might argue not everyone gets an opportunity in this big bad world, and I may have to agree, but I'm just trying to put another thought of mine into words here.

P.S. One might say this is something obvious, something that everyone knows, and that I'm just making a fool out of myself blogging such a simple thing, and I totally agree with you if that's your opinion, because things obvious to one aren't always obvious to everybody else.

Beneath that smile.

Sometimes the best thing you can do is to lie to yourself. Lie, that everything will be fine. Lie, that whatsoever problems you face will eventually fade away. Lie, that just smiling would wipe out all your troubles.

In fact it does help, for the momentary happiness but later on you find yourself sobbing again.

A lot of posititvity has been spreading all around Google Plus and Wattpad these days, inspiring me too to write something about it. Everybody tells you that you're not alone. Everybody lens you a shoulder to cry on. Everybody encourages you to smile through your problems, but what they don't teach you, is to actually accept the situation as it is, and smile whilst trying to make the situation better.

If you just sit in front of Lord Ganesha's idol all day, you can't expect an A on your exam. Well, you should probably pray a little, but you sure should spend some time going through your text book.
Similarly, just smiling and pretending that things are going to be fine will not help. You should try your level best to do something about it, and that would even give you confidence that your hardwork can't go in vain, and hence your problems will definitely disappear someday.

One of the most crucial problems we face today, is too much of sympathy. Share your sorrow with people, and they sympathize. Not everybody, but some do. You should be smart enough to choose whom you can share your problems with. And also limit the number of people whom you share 'em with.

Whenever you feel bad about your fate, remember, you would never agree to exchange your problems for anybody else's. Only when you look deep into their life, far beneath that fake-smile on their lips, will you realize what kind of issues they have to deal with in their lives.

Best Thing - Dream come true

One of the best things that can ever happen to you is having your dream come true. 

I always enjoyed reading. And then I found Wattpad. And then I was inspired to write. And so I did. 

And now I have readers. Not a hell lot, but a handful, and I'm really thankful for them. For the first time, someone out there made a cover for my book. It's a stepping stone, isn't it? I'm so happy for myself right now. I never expected I would write my third book. (Well my first two aren't completed yet, but anyway!) 

Just know that each and everyone of you, who encouraged me with appreciation, mean a lot to me :) A lot. I'd like to put a thousand O's between the L and T but that would be too kiddish :P 

You might not really believe it, but I have a screenshot of most your comments on my book. I know that most you reading this blogpost aren't probably readers of my book and most of my readers have no idea that this blog exists, but I'm just expressing gratitude and I'll try to make sure they'll know about it. 

And oh yes, if you have no idea what I'm talking about, just click here. 

Have a wonderful week, lovelies :)

Great Video: Boys in Books are Better

I found really......... worth sharing! :)

Comparison

According to me, there are two kinds of music.

Songs, to be more precise.

One, you fall in love with the song as soon as you hear it. You go high every time it plays. It's the only thing you can think of for a month. But as new music albums discover you, it slowly fades away.. It becomes a mere memory. 

Two, you don't really appreciate the song. "Well, it's good", you say, faking a smile. But sometime later, you find yourself humming the tune. You realize, that it's actually nice. And as time goes, you love it more and more. No matter how many new songs release, this one has its own place on your playlist.

I found myself humming one such tune yesterday(the latter one), and I just started wondering, if I could compare this to people in our lives.

Two kinds of people.

The first type of people brighten your life all of a sudden. You start to believe that they're the most important part of you life. But eventually, they part. They get busy with their life. And they go finding new people, leaving you with a bunch of memories, that do nothing more than make you feel low.

And the second type? You don't really care who they are at the beginning. You never realize when you get closer to them. But they last a lifetime. 

Check this cool poem ;) I liked it :)

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Been long.

Hey bloggers!!
Long time!
I was just thinking, why don't I get back to blogging for a little!

So, What's up?
I've read some books and watched some interesting movies while I was away.
I finished the first series of Percy Jackson and it was absolutely awesome :)
One paranormal book, titled Possessed, by Natasha Preston, kept me hooked. I guess the title pretty much tell you it's about something ghostly... Anyway, I wasn't very much convinced with the ending.

About music, I've started listening to Hollywood. Blankspace by Taylor Swift and The Heart Wants What It Wants by Selena Gomez top my favourites!! <3

And notable movies.. well, PK was one good movie. The story was touching as well as message-oriented. I did feel like some of it was replica of an older Hindi movie, titled 'Oh My God', but anyway, the film was a big hit in the box office. It's still running in theaters, i suppose.
'Oka Laila Kosam' was great too :) It's a good family entertainment drama. Just the kind of movie I enjoy watching with family.
And this cute one, "Oohalu Gusagusalade", is a perfect blend of comedy and romance.
Going back to the black-and-whites, I watched 'Pelli Pramanalu', a 1958 film starring the great Nageswar Rao garu. T'was good too :)

Fortunately enough, I also seemed to have realized that what really matters at the hour is my academics. I hope I keep up the spirit and do well in my board exams!

And oh, by the way... I received a comment on one of my stories.. They loved my book and they wanted me to update. Nothing could've made me happier!!

Nice one :P

Shame

I don't understand how people can be so cruel. Writing is a passion. Writing is an art. And after enjoying a thirty-three chapters of hardwork with a cup of coffee, all you do is criticise and point out mistakes? Don't you ever think about the author's perspective, or her point of view? 
People write, to escape the sorrows of their realities, and to make their fantasies real. They write, seeking to be heard. They write, expecting some encouragement. And if you can't give them that, you have every right to stop reading it, but you definitely do not have to insult them just because they have allowed you to give feedback.
It is more than disheartening, that one of the best authors, who'd works I highly appreciate for the touch of humanity and life, has no choice, rather than DELETING her book from the net.