Mistakes

Everybody make mistakes. Some bigger than the others. Making a mistake doesn't mean you're a loser. It only means you're human.

Life is a long drive. And we are bound to make wrong turns. To take wrong paths. To reach wrong places.To get lost. But then we find our way back. We get back to right route, and we keep going. We often regret our choices, but trust me, everything that happens, happens for our good. We blame ourselves, we get frustrated. We separate ourselves from our loved ones, thinking that the little mistake made by us would probably be repeated again, and that we don't deserve them. But trust me, that only makes things worse. That, infact is worse than the mistake you had made. 

I read a book recently. It teared me up. The boy and the girl had made mistakes. And they fought. They broke up. The pain they had to go through is barely describable. And then they realized that their love was too much to let go. They realized that those mistakes had actually done them good. And also that those mistakes weren't worth losing their love. Moreover, what was done was done, and it could not be changed. All that mattered was the regret, and both of them regretted enough.

If we sulk all the time thinking about a hundred thousand things you could've done or words you could've told, there will be nothing left in our lives other than the "could've"s. All we care about to make things better is 'now' but most of us fail to realize that. 

Whilst reading the book, the only thing that ran through my mind was that if each of the characters looked from the other person's point of view, it wouldn't have come this far. 

 

Just start looking for what could go right than what went wrong. As simple as that. 

Time

Time changes everything. If someone from two generations ago witnessed the things trending on social networks today, they wouldn't believe their instincts. A few years ago, attitude was portrayed as a bad quality. It was a shame to call someone as a person with a hell lot of attitude. But today, attitude signifies power. It signifies strength. You can see people wearing T-shirts that say "I'm a good person with a bad attitude" or "If attitude could kill, I'd be the deadliest weapon in the world."

I'm not saying that this is wrong. I am just amazed at how time changes it all. It changes the meaning of words. It changes the perception of things. A decade ago, you call someone a bitch, and it would be considered the biggest insult ever. Today, you see people calling each other like "Hey bitch, what's up?" And changes like these often cause misunderstandings too. Someone replies to you "such a cunt" in a playful way. Let's suppose you do not know what 'cunt' means. You google it. It says: Derogatory term for a woman. Considered by many to be the most offensive word in the English language.


You're obviously offended, while the person conversing with you hadn't meant it at all. Let's take another example. There's this channel called 'Superwoman' on Youtube. She's pretty famous. She makes a lot of relatable videos and she's actually quite nice. So I was watching this video of hers called "What Smileys really mean?" or something along the same lines. I was surprised because most of the emojis meant must different to her than how they did to me. Maybe the problem is that, nobody has ever made a hard and fast rule for what those emoticons mean. It just depends on ourselves and our friends how we use them. And the problem arises only when we talk to a person from a totally different country where they're in a totally different society and hence very much different way of perceiving things. One guy online was surprised when I called him 'dude'. I call almost all my friends 'dude' at college. It doesn't make any difference at all. But to him, it really meant something else. Maybe. And I still don't know what it might have been. Well, all that matters here is that we are supposed to be very clear while expressing our views. Often, the wrong message is conveyed, It's way worse than a game of Chinese Whisper.

The pyramid

I looked out of the window as I was done with a third of The Alchemist. I stared deep into the emptiness of the sky. In the distance, a mountain peak caught my eye.
Most of the lower part of the mountain was blocked from my vision, so I could only see its top. It looked like a grey pyramid. I looked down to the book in my lap, and smiled to myself, for its cover had two pyramids on it.
It is in fact amazing that whenever our mind is in a certain mindset, nature decides to portray itself accordingly.
I looked back outside the window and this time the mountain peak was gone. All i could see were houses and trees. But its image lay undisturbed in my mind.
This happens to us in everyday life. When you want to watch a movie you find its posters everywhere. Posters that went unnoticed by you the last time you passed by.

Breathtakingly Beautiful

Last night it was raining heavily here in Vizag and we went for a drive along the beach. The speciality of Vizag is that the mountains make you feel like you're in a hill station and you also have the beach since its on the coast. The eastern ghats look so amazing in the ocean. However, being night time we couldn't see the mountains in the ocean yesterday. But whenever the lightning struck, the outline of the mountains was illuminated and it looked simply marvelous. I felt like witnessing that beauty was enough to be considered as a reason for my existence.

The river

I averted my gaze to the river outside the train window as I sensed that we were on a bridge. It had somehow managed to distract me from the book I was reading on Wattpad.

At first I looked far off, where the water meet the sky and was amazed by its beauty. As I looked further close I observed a lot of artificial features. Something brown was floating on the water and all the grass was topped with plastic items. I wondered if I had the right to blame the people around, for what they do isn't any different from what people at my place do. I mean, we don't make sure that the drainage that leaves our house is treated. It might be going into a nearby lake and we'd have no idea whilst boating in the same lake.

And when we bring up issues like these while talking to others, they say "It's India... You can't expect better." Isn't there anything we can do to bring a change in this attitude? I'd agree the prime minister has taken some measures and that's really cool and everything, but not many people actually care.

All I can do right now is hope, that the next time I come this way, maybe Krishna river will actually regain its natural beauty.

The greatest oxymoron

What is it called to be chronophobic but yet not do anything to make our future better? That describes my life.

I'm not guilty but I repent. I'm so worried yet so carefree. So busy yet so bored.
Life by itself is a kind of oxymoron, isn't it? It's a blend of contrasts. Just like how nature is made of different yet perfectly combined colours. It's a puzzle that seems to be impossible to complete, but at the end somehow everything fits in. At least, that's what we hope, and that hope leads us through life.

Today I realized how difficult it is to take things that I usually advice people to, for I couldn't do the same myself. I'd been constantly battling with myself, obviously discussing with my inner self the pros and cons of every possibility, and that, as usual, only made it worse. It so happens that sometimes, talking to a friend about something, even though they don't give you any advise, helps better than talking to yourself because no matter how much you try, you're only 'one mind' as a whole and you can't expect the good part in you to convince the bad or vice-versa.

Well I guess I got off the track.